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I’ve spent 20 years treading water and fear that I’ve wasted so much time. Am I depressed?
Turn your attention to your internal landscape rather than the next building project. Make your next project yourself
TL;DR
- The author, in his late 60s, feels he has been 'treading water' for 20 years, with his finances tied to an unsellable property.
- He experienced suicidal thoughts after his father's death, prompting him to seek therapy.
- Therapy helped him discuss his cross-dressing with his wife, leading to partial acceptance.
- A psychotherapist suggested his father's death might be a catalyst for re-evaluating his life and that his focus on building projects could be an avoidance of internal pain.
- The therapist advised him to focus on his internal landscape and make himself his 'next project' rather than solely focusing on external goals like selling his house or building projects.